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PERSONAL STORIES FROM MALE VICTIMS OF FAMILY VIOLENCE AND ABUSE

Saturday
Nov282009

Gary

Once when I was having a debate with my ex-wife she punched me in the nose and made it bleed. Another time, also during a debate she punched me with a closed fist and split my lip. Then on another occasion I was holding my 16 month old daughter on my hip and we were having a slightly tense discussion. She walked over and punched my baby daughter in the middle of the back, sending us both flying. It was a terrific blow. I fled the house with my daughter and looked for somewhere to stay, but all my friends were at work or on holidays. So I phoned an emergency refuge who literally laughed at my request for help, and proceded to tell me that the service was only for women. I tried another shelter without success. I had no money left and couldn’t afford accommodation, so I spent the night sleeping under a derelict building without blankets, and I held my daughter close to keep her warm. She cried for most of the night because she was afraid and hungry, and I could only give her water from a nearby tap. My daughter was traumatised and so was I (and we both still are). The next morning we returned home because we had no alternative. I later asked my wife why she punched our daughter and her answer was literally “because I knew that would upset you more than if I had hit you” and she apologised profusely.

At the moment she hit our daughter I knew instantly that the marriage must finish. I now have sole care of my two beautiful children after a court found her unfit to be a parent for a number of reasons.

Violence against men and their children is real.

Saturday
Nov282009

Paul

I’m a man and I was raped by a woman - my girlfriend.

She had a voracious sexual appetite, some would say a sex addiction, usually pressuring to have sex with me several times each day. At first I thought the intimacy was loving, but then soon came to feel she was using me as a toy. I would add that I’m not a wimp and don't get pushed around. I am also physically strong. But I would give in to her demands for sex because she would pressure, nag, and get hysterically aggressive when I said no. I just found it easier to give in and “fake” an orgasm so that she would finish quicker. 

One time I was suffering a life-threatening illness and had a raging temperature over 40 degrees, and I asked her to call an ambulance as I was having heart failure because of the high fever. My heart was pounding and missing beats. At that moment she started to touch my sweat-drenched body in a way that made it clear she was after sex. I was appalled she would attempt such a thing when I was so seriously ill. I said, ”No, please don’t, I’m extremely sick and can’t cope”. She insisted and kept touching and grabbing violently. I did not have the energy to stop her so I just lay there and let her get her rocks off. It was the most soul destroying, painful thing anyone has done to me. It was clearly rape. That night I managed to call an ambulance and was taken to hospital where I remained for a week to get better from pneumonia and heart failure complications.

I have told my story once to a group of three men. Two of those men told of a first hand experience they had of sexual violence by a woman. One thing we agreed on, we would never tell authorities because they wouldn’t believe us and we would be laughed at.

Friday
Nov272009

Giani

The wife threatened to kill herself if I didn't stay and put up with her mother’s put downs. The wife took the credit for everything that went well and blamed me for everything that didn’t. The wife put me down in front of our children and encouraged them to put me down too. The wife would not allow me to have my own bank account and made me beg her for pocket money. The wife character-assassinated me to friends and family and alienated me from them. The wife took her anger out on my son’s dog in front of me. The wife would dress up in sexy clothes and come on to men in pubs in front of me and my mother and grin back at me. The wife would drink and be sick all over me and our car and in front of the children. The wife called me ugly, fat, crazy and lazy everyday we were together. After my vasectomy the wife and her mother joked that I had been de-sexed and the wife said that I was no longer a real man. The wife encouraged me to run around after her and her mother and not to pursue my career but told everyone I was a dole-bludger who didn't want to work. The wife made me stay up all night at least once a week to catch up on housework. The wife would always buy herself nice clothes while the children and I walked around in clothes that were old and in many cases had rips, holes or stains. The wife threatened me if I did not have an open marriage she would use her knowledge of the family court to take the family home from me, take the children from me and put down our little dog. I am sad to report that I took my counsellor and case workers advice to say no to the wife, and so the wife’s threats have become reality. I now believe that the wife is using the legal system and other government bodies to bully and harass me.

Friday
Nov272009

Keryn

My 19 year old son hooked up with a 17 year old young woman 8 weeks ago. She moved in within 2 days. He was not allowed to see, call or text his friends.

Last Thursday she claimed to be pregnant – 2 days after ovulation – that is if indeed she was having the period she claimed on 28th October. P.S. This skinny little girl had a pot tummy when she met us. We wondered why. Josh states they were using condoms religiously, one had never broken nor come adrift. He can’t understand how she managed it.

Within an hour of meeting her, my partner and I were making bets on how long she would take to get pregnant and get her claws into him. We had tagged her as a user and abuser due to her behaviour, her rubbishing him and striking him in front of us and his clear fear of her.

We found out also on Thursday:

  • She would not allow him to sleep past 10am – (he works night shift getting home at 8am)
  • She gave him an allowance for ½ tank petrol and some food and takes the remainder of his wages
  • She beats him regularly and also his dog
  • She tells him everything wrong in her life is his fault
  • She demands expensive presents rather than meeting his debts and then claims the presents are not good enough
  • She breaks furniture and household items in her rages and then destroys the jewellery her buys her
  • She tells him he’s useless, worthless, f’n stupid.
  • He states “Mum, I am trying so hard, I just can’t make her happy – and I am miserable”

The last assault, she beat him with the broom, gouged him with her nails and kneed him in his chest deformity which causes him excruciating pain. He raised his knees in reflex. He struck her in the stomach as he did so. He than ran from the house, then returned to get his dog to protect it from her. She beat him again and called the police who stated that he would be arrested.

She left with friends. We moved him from the house they were sharing last Saturday.

Yesterday, she got hold of him to “talk”.  By 8pm he:

  • Is going back to her
  • Can’t talk to us
  • Wants and planned for this child
  • States his family doesn’t care about him 
  • Demands we support her as well as him.

 

I can’t do it.

He has no concept of our fears for him but states that people change, she has apologised and he states - “things just might be OK from here on in – she understands she went about things the wrong way now.”

My son has been stolen and will be destroyed by this terrorist. He is too afraid to defend himself, to walk away, to breathe without permission.

And he WILL NOT listen!!!

Now what???

Saturday
Nov212009

Peter

Firstly, I have to say how deeply insulted I am, when I see these Australia Says No to Violence Against Women, advertisements on TV.  And the ads where a boy locks himself in a room with a male coming down the hallway to yet again sexually assault him.

When I see these ads, I literally feel sick in the stomach and if my boys are in the room, they get angry and verbally run these ads down as utter lies and rubbish, because they have all been hurt by an abusive woman, who has so many women supporting her in her attempts to control our children. Even my daughter questions the sincerity of other women, but worst of all, she does not trust her own mother.

These ads all state that men are the perpetrators of ‘ALL’ domestic violence and child abuse and that women are innocent just like the children are innocent.

Well, I'm sorry to say that the women I have known are nothing like innocent and it is anathema to state they are innocent like children.

In my abusive marriage that ended early 2006, for the 15 years of that marriage, I suffered some very serious abuse from my wife who was almost as tall as me and weighed roughly the same too.  Her behaviour left me feeling that at anytime she was going to start belting me, because she was so verbally violent, when she would lean over me with her knuckles clenched while I sat at the kitchen table and she would be screaming abuses at me because I dared to raise the issue with her of the fact she forgot to pay a bill yet again and they are now threatening to send out the debt collectors.

This was from a woman who wanted control of the money, but then complain that her load was too much. When I offered to her that we do it together, she would then fly at me for not trusting her.

That scenario happened again some months later! 

The above abuse only escalated as the years went by, but in the second year of our marriage our first child was born, a boy. This boy would then go on to suffer horrendous physical, emotional and psychological abuse for the whole of the 13.5 years he lived with his mother. She would bash him and bash him till he was on the floor in a foetal position. She would be standing above him and swinging hits at him, like a flailing machine registering hits of anywhere between 10 and 20 times.

Whenever I was around to witness this, I always intervened by screaming at her to stop. She warned me that if I ever told anyone outside of our home, anything that I believed she was like, that that would be the instant end of our marriage and I would never see our son or any of our children ever again.

So, being totally defeated and too frightened to leave my son alone with this monster, I remained and capitulated. We ended up with 3 more kids. These children did not suffer as much as the first one, but they did (and still do) suffer serious neglect and manipulation.

Later in the marriage when I ended up off work chronically ill, she became physically violent. She would hit and shove me, when I tried to escape her tirades. She would barricade me in our bedroom by standing in the doorway with her arms crossed and refuse to move. She would be screaming at me demanding answers to questions, but she wouldn't shut up to let me answer. She would call me all sorts of names and I would end up feeling like I was having a heart attack and was going to die. On three occasions I exploded and hit the wall next to my side of the bed, which was on the opposite side of the room to her and because it was made of old plaster board, the wall got a hole in it. She would then leave me alone after berating me for damaging the wall. But on two occasions, I thought I was truly going to die and had to escape. So I mustered up all my strength, which was not much due to my illness, and I pushed past her. All I achieved was to push her back on her heels, which made it much easier for her to come back at me with all her body weight and shove me very hard then slap me. This shove further hurt my already badly damaged spine and I saw stars and nearly collapsed. I had to go back to my bed and I just collapsed on the bed and hardly moved for 3 whole days. During the 3 days she hardly spoke to me or came near me. I thought I was going to die!

When she decided to get rid of me, I was in hospital in the city and just before I was due to come home, she gleefully informed me that if I did, I would be arrested because she got a violence restraining order out on me. This order effectively kept me in exile from my home town and away from my kids for 8 months. She lied to the police and the courts to get this order and I was treated like a criminal from then on by everyone.

We have one daughter who is the second youngest. This poor child, along with the boys, loves her mother a lot, but finds she must have a week on and week off with me and her mother, so she can have some respite. Their mother is a very expensive and draining woman to live with. She is a 100% taker and gives little to nothing of herself back.

Now I have the eldest living with me 100%, the second eldest at 80% and the two youngest at 50%.  Every week the youngest has to go back to his mother, he begs me to let him stay. But he is too immature to make that decision and because he cannot fight the authorities, then he has to remain with his mother until he is strong enough to demand to stay with me.

You see, the authorities, being the family court, the police and the Dept of Child Protection, all manipulate children when they interview them. They twist what the children say and then lie in court. These departments are completely against fathers and will openly and deliberately and knowingly keep children with an abusive mother, just so they can stop them going to the father.

It is their policy to openly discriminate against fathers. I would challenge anyone to prove me wrong! If this is not the case then why is it that all men are aware of the hatred and abuse they will receive when being involved with these most horried govt depts, and why is it that even in 2009 they still send the vast majority of children back with the mother and in most cases the mother is the abuser of the children.

I am confident of that claim too, because in Western Australia, the dept of child protection's own stats for the last 4 years show that mothers are responsible for 3 times more of the child abuse to their own children than the natural fathers are.

When I was kicked out of my family and forcibly kept in exile by an unlawful restraining order, I made numerous phone calls and looked all through the internet to find any help or support for me as an abused husband/father and to also get help for my abused children.

What I found was that there was ZERO help out there for me. Even the men's helpline was totally useless. They actually told me they were there to help men who were abusers not victims.

And I made the mistake of phoning the dept of child protection. The woman I spoke to attacked me and told me to stop telling lies about the mother of my children and warned me that I could get into trouble for doing so. She claimed that according to statistics, women are all victims and that the men are the abusers of women and children.

So, because of this woman, my children had to endure many more months of abuse at the hands of their mother and also their mother's own abuser - her mother.

You see, the abuse in this family has come down through the women. My ex wife's grandmother abused her husband and her children but one child in particular. That child was my wife's mother. My wife's mother abused her husband and also my wife as well. Then my wife abused me and all our children but most of all the eldest.

The only abuse she hasn't perpetrated, to my knowledge that is, is sexual abuse.  She has done everything else!!

I can only hope and pray that this country will get rid of its discrimination against men and boys and start bringing the pendulum back to centre. We all know men and women should be treated equally, so why on earth are we discriminating against men.